Why Am I Aspiring?

So it may seem a little silly to have a blog about aspiring to do things or be things. The original intent of this blog was to be a countdown of days until I made the first big trip I had aspired to make in my life: Ireland. But as circumstances began to change in my life, the blog metamorphosed into something much more. These are just a few things I “aspire” to do or to be:

Aspiring traveler: A love of travel has always been a fire that burns deep within me. From the minute I knew what the word meant, I knew I wanted to do it. My first trip abroad to Europe only fueled the fire more. I realized what an amazing and vast world there is out there and how much we can learn about each other and ourselves just by making a trip outside the U.S. 

I grew up in a town where most people had no desire to travel. No desire to go anywhere outside our small town. Most people’s lives consisted of going to high school, marrying your high school sweetheart and having children down the street from where you grew up. If you didn’t do that, you joined the military. I don’t want to sound like I’m making a judgement on that, I think it’s great that so many people feel such a strong connection to their hometown. I think that’s one of things that made where I grew up so wonderful. And even as I get older, I find myself feeling a familiar pull back to the town I grew up in. But staying there forever was never the life I saw for myself. For those people, it worked. But for me, not so much. I wanted to get out see the world and I wanted to do it as fast as humanly possible.

An aspiring writer: I studied Creative Writing in college, though I haven’t picked up a pen in about 5 years. Writing in the context of novels or short stories has always been kind of frustrating for me.  I like to write what I know and a lot of my fiction ends up becoming more like non-fiction. Which is why I love blogging so much I think. I don’t feel that same frustration to have the perfect story line or have it all figured out right away. I can just write as I go.

An aspiring humanitarian and human: We all have things we need to work on with ourselves and this point in my life has been a great time for me to reflect on what I can do better and how I can  treat those around me better. We’re all human and we’re all in this together after all.

An aspiring friend: I’ve been extremely blessed to have so many great friends in my life and I always want to do my best to return that favor.

Aspiring to be in a relationship: I know the world of dating is something a lot of women are struggling with and trying to navigate. I’m no different. Dating can be difficult and fun, stressful and exhilarating. I hope when the time is right that all of that will bring me to a great guy that I can be in a long term relationship with.

Having been born with a rare form of muscular dystrophy, it seems like a lot of my life has been me “aspiring” to do things but not necessarily doing them. Whether that be because of my own fear, because I wasn’t raised with the idea of “you can do anything,” or because sometimes things literally are harder for me because of my physical limitations…I’m not sure. It’s probably a combination of all of those. But I hope that by documenting what I’m aspiring to do, it will allow me to no longer just aspire but to actually do and that maybe someone else will be inspired to do the same!

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