Ok so a) I love Justin Timberlake. He’s uber talented but most importantly, he’s just hilarious. If you haven’t watched him host SNL ever, you’re missing out. But I digress. Point b) is that I absolutely love this song and video. It makes me feel just all kinds of happy vibes.
Dancing has always been a touchy subject for me. I don’t really like doing it and haven’t really done it very much in my life. Most of that stems from my having MD. I can’t move my legs like other people so even though I actually have pretty good rhythm, it’s hard for me. I slow danced with my date at my high school prom. I think I may have busted a few moves at Winter Formal one year. I went to see an awesome 80s cover band with some friends a few years ago and I was very proud of myself because for the first time ever, I danced totally sober. And I mean danced.
But my go-to response to dancing is to sit on the sidelines or even to refuse people who ask me. I care less and less what people think of me as I get older but for some reason, dancing is still that one thing I have trouble shaking the self-consciousness on. I remember one time I was at a bar and I just kind of danced in my seat to whatever song came on and a girl across the bar started making fun of me (I later got made fun of in that same bar for the way I talked. Needless to say, haven’t been back there in a while). People can be assholes, that’s a given. And I shouldn’t let it affect my ability to let loose, but that kind of stuff stays with you (as is made clear by the fact I’m retelling it to you now).
I hope one day I’ll get to a point where I can dance freely and not care one iota what people are thinking of me. Dancing is kind of an interesting representation of who I am. I’m a little uptight and a lot afraid of a lot of things. Letting loose isn’t something I do well. But maybe, just maybe, I can dance dance dance dance.