One of those most frustrating things about this pandemic (besides the obvious), is my inability to exercise like I used to. Going to water aerobics at least twice a week was a life saver. I could work my body out, keep up my strength as much as possible, and have fun. Without that option, I’m kind of screwed. I’ll add that I’ve had some very nice friends with pools offer to let me use them during all this. But because of the way home pools are usually set up, I wasn’t going to be able to get in and out of any of them.
I’ve tried a lot of different things since the stay at home order started. I tried doing some YouTube dance videos. I lifted weights. I tried to do some of my water aerobics moves on land. Everything ended up the same way, with me hurting myself in one way or another. I can’t go for a walk because if I fall, no one can help me up because of COVID.
I’ve realized in recent years that if I was able to, I actually think I would work out a lot. I always thought I hated it, but I actually hated the fact that I couldn’t do it like everyone else. I wish I could do online yoga right now or any of the 5 million online workout options, but they always involve some aspect that I can’t do and then it just feels pointless. Maybe that’s a flaw in my attitude, but I want to be able to do the whole thing or nothing at all.
At my parents’ house, I’m fortunate there’s a hot tub so I can least get some kind of movement in there. My diet hasn’t been the best (especially these last few days) so I’m not doing myself any favors there. I deleted my Instagram app and deactivated my Facebook so at least I’m somewhat removed from the constant barrage of everyone talking about their workout from home routines that makes me feel even worse. It’s just all the damn commercials now that I have to see.
This is a tough time for everyone. COVID is bringing challenges we couldn’t even begin to grasp, but I don’t think people fully comprehend just how challenging this is for people with disabilities. Things that were already hard pre-COVID are now 10 times harder and we have to worry about dying if we go outside of our house now too.
I’m trying to make the best of it and keep from being too sedentary, but wow do I really miss the pool.